dream

talking about dreams,every1 has 1 dream,whether u hv since u were small or wat. but in ur real life,u jz wont hv d chance2 realise it,make it become a real thing dat happen in ur life...many ppl choose 2 let d dream remain as d dream..haha^^ well,i guess,i'm one of them. i jz duno y, stimes v jz cant get wat v wan,or evrythg doesnt go as d way u plan...stimes i tel myself dun plan dat much,there r many thgs which are so unpredictable in life,whether good or bad.for good thing,well,it's a bonus 2 ur life....but if bad thing turns out,u jz hv 2 5n a solution for it. life is full of choices, and choices dat v made lead us 2 some decisions then. well....c'est la vie!dat's jz life,like Eason Chan's song....永远向前，路一直都在。

shud i...

how shud i feel?all these years i've been wait' 4 dis,grad from U. stil got 2 more papers left then i'll leave study+Uni life...wonder whether i had given my best 4 d pas few years. i officially diagnosed myself as having endstage homesick+lovesick...i mis a lot of ppl,thg...who are special 4 me. after all dis years, i thk my dad shud work less, he looks older day after day of hard work...stimes he cant tk a break o spend a holidy...i jz enjoy hang out vf my parents dring d vikend, i knw they wana relax and get their life out of those "family drama"...i'll oways b thr 4 them, let them feel proud2 hv me as their daughter. duno i'll change in d future o not but i wont b worse, i'll b better,trust me.....i wont let any1 who loves me down!there's oways another moutain in life,keep climb',keep on moving~im nt break'...

weird feeling

well, i jz fin a quiz dis afternoon, duwana talk much bout it, it was quite awful to recall,haha... but usually i would feel a sense of relief after any quiz, but nt dis time, mayb dis vik clerkship is in d psychiatric ward, 6th vik of clinical clerkship, seen 2 many thgs many ppl.
aftr quiz, v had2walk 2 d ward, along d way, they a family i thk gather around the coridor, all cry',man & woman....tears r falling from their eyes...i thk sthg bad must has been happened to this family, but i hope they vil stay strong after d rain, live happily, cont life 4 the loved one dat they had lost..life must goes on, dont stop moving~b strong...

mad

She's starin' at me,
I'm sittin', wonderin' what she's thinkin'.
Mmmmm
Nobody's talkin',
'Cause talkin' just turns into screamin'.
Ohhh...
And now is I'm yellin' over her,
She's yellin' over me.
All that that means
Is neither of us is listening,
(And what's even worse).
That we don't even remember why were fighting.

So both of us are mad for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
(Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
(This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Whoaaaaaaaaa...
[What happened to workin' it out].
We've falled into this place
Where you ain't backin' down
And I ain't backin' down.

So what the hell do we do now...
It's all for...

[Hook]

Nothin'
(Fighting for).
Nothin'
(Crying for).
Nothin'
(Whoahhh).
But we won't let it go for
Nothin'
(No not for)
Nothin'.
This should be nothin' to a love like what we got.
Ohhh, baby...

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Bridge]

Oh baby this love ain't gonna be perfect,
(Perfect, perfect, oh oh).
And just how good it's gonna be.
We can't fuss and we can't fight
Long as everything alright between us
Before we go to sleep.

Baby, we're gonna be happy.

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

so sick

i'dis is d 4th day dat i'm sick...it began vf sore throats, then dry cough, & now productive cough~ it's veli suffer'2 b sick, i cough from time to time, even when i'm eat' o drk' ~ aih~ hope dat i can get well soon, it's rainy days here again & no hot water supply 4 us to tk bath, dis is so ~ duno hw 2 say~ i jz gt over it again & again~cough cough~yaiks~hehe~ fighting for nxt vik 2 small tests.......gd day~

can i do it?是我不能如歌词中的坚强，还是你真的做不到？

试着让身边很吵闹好好想念你的怀抱
某一秒我竟微笑体会你扬起的嘴角悲伤的呼唤
也许在跟自己比较让你哭过是我不好
太自责话都变少然而你还是最美好要让你知道
做得到不管相爱总会有一些低潮我爱你就应该对你越来越好
现在只想忽然把你抱得高高看着你笑我也笑别自寻烦恼
做得到你说再苦也要跟我直到老我说的每一个承诺会说到做到
感谢你坚强勇敢让我很骄傲
你所想要的爱我能做得到
也许在跟自己比较让你哭过是我不好
太自责话都变少然而你还是最美好要让你知道做得到不管相爱总会有一些低潮
我爱你就应该对你越来越好现在只想忽然把你抱得高高看着你笑我也笑别自寻烦恼
做得到你说再苦也要跟我直到老
我说的每一个承诺会说到做到感谢你坚强勇敢让我很骄傲
你所想要的爱我能做得到原谅我内心交战让你好难过我能给你的爱没有做不到

i miss...

i miss u, i miss my home & family so much~ my fren post a personal msg in msn saying that izit when v r far away from home, then v oni realise how important is our family to us? well, 4me, im nt dat kind of person. i mis my family even when im spending time with them. touchwood, v duno wat vil happen then, therefore i choose 2 appreciate everythg dat i hv in life. i rmb a song by Ronan Keating " if tmr nvr cm~would she know how much i love her~" jz do wat u thk is right & good 4 urself~& of coz nt harmful 4 u & others....appreciate every moment in ur life...

places~

this is a rough view of d streets near d central market, i found d McD, d Little Egypt etc etc.....d little house my parents bought it vf RM20, it was love at 1st sight, & cannot resist for not buying it, it's so adorable vf balcony & oso a small car on it....

Explore Kelantan vf Parents!

this is d view of d centre of d central market hehe~my mom said dis could b her heaven if my hometown got this kind of market

BeST vikend i ever had!

i went to pick up my parents at 12sthg in d aftrn', d airport is cute&small, but is quite far from my place. 1st day v jz went to tesco & KB mall, but at nite, v had dinner at Chengmai restaurant,where they gv high grade2 those food being served. well, my parents r spicy food lover, it was an amazing meal 4 them haha!

on saturdy, v took cab to Central market, my mom start shopping since then, i saw a lot of new stuff, meet a lot ppl, bought a lot of thg.......dis is indeed a good xperience, v were like backpacker without backpack of coz, wandering around d streets, dis is so cool! i nvr knew i could hv dis kind of experince vf my parents,haha~

life isn't fair

dis vik, i went 2 pediatrics ward for our peds clerkship. this time i saw a diferen scene,diferen from other wards. last time, i went 2 a male ward, d patient all having their wife beside them, dis is indeed veli sweet bcoz....only ur other half of ur life vil accompany u thru bad & gd times. when nobody's there 4 u, at least they're d oni 1 u hv & u can depend on...

in peds ward, d patients hav their parents of course, accompany' them, take care of them....hold them in their arms& fall asleep 2gthr. i saw a grandfather who take k of his grandchild who is quite severely ill but still can move about, he'll talk vf his grandson~play vf him~i feel so sorry 4 dis boy being sick,in d other hand im hapi 4 him bcoz he has some 1 beside him, tk k of him & nvr abandone him. well, life isn't fair, but they all choose to get over it, 1 of d parent tell me..."ah...nasib..." then she cont 2 smile & chat vf others....but i know they r nt surrender'...they're all fighting hard2 live on, 2 move on ~ may all d patients, d babies, d children get well soon..

rainy days

dis is d 4th day d rain stil kp falling here....2 or 3 days continuosly well i still can accept, but dis d 4th day, isnt it better if u jz let d sun show uup 4 a while..well, jz a while vil do haha...i got my own umbrealla actualy, but i seldom use it, im nt sure wether i hate 2 use it o im jz simply lazy,haha...okok,im lazy..well there's jz low possibility dat i vil get wet, so y nid 2 tk out d umbrella open it, then nid 2 dry it & kp it bac then...wat a waste of time. well i know it's jz an excuse but i dun thk it'/s necessary 2 do so :p but there's less mosquitoes recently, since im oways d mosquitoes "attraction" , dis is gd 4 me
i guess i hv 2 cont doin my case report, i'll write bout my clerkship then, til then, i hope all d patient in d hosp get well soon!

Another Vik

sigh....i'm soooOOooo sleepy & tired right now...wish myself vil have a gd day ltr,fighting!

Explore

last9 i went2 hav dinner vf my frens at nearby KFC. however, d workers there were not friendly at all, d way they treat us was totally diferen from treat' others.im nt goin2 comment more on dat. i wont go there anymore either. aftr dinner, v went 2 nearby shop houses2 take a look. v found 2 shops which sells books & stationery, however, bookshop here dun sell chinese magazine..sweat.....but jz a few english magazine. but i found sthg interesting in d shop. they sell d colour pencils dat v used2 hv when v were small, in kindergarden o primary school, those thgs realy brought bac a lot of memory, i used hv a big box of them, i thk it consist of 32colours more o less. i like d contrast of all d colours, like if red,it oso includes pink, darker pink, light pink, dark red, light red, so cool, dat's how v use 2 colour our drawing when v were small.

have u ever?

Have you ever loved somebody so muchIt makes you cryHave you ever needed something so badYou can't sleep at nightHave you ever tried to find the wordsBut they don't come out rightHave you ever, have you everHave you ever been in loveBeen in love so badYou'd do anything to make them understandHave you ever had someone steal your heart awayYou'd give anything to make them feel the sameHave you ever searched for words to get you in their heartBut you don't know what to sayAnd you don't know where to starHave you ever found the oneYou've dreamed of all of your lifeYou'd do just about anything to look into their eyesHave you finally found the one you've given your heart toOnly to find that one won't give their heart to youHave you ever closed your eyes andDreamed that they were thereAnd all you can do is wait for the day when they will careWhat do I gotta do to get you in my arms babyWhat do I gotta say to get to your heartTo make you understand how I need you next to meGotta get you in my world'Cuz baby I can't sleep

surgical pharmacy and radiopahrmacy clerkship

sounds cool rite? but wat v did was jz go round ward vf doctor. dis vik i met a surgical doctor, he is realy smart, well in the sense of the knowledge & confident that he hv.
1 more thing, ysterday i saw d most precious smiling face i ever seen. this is d patient that our group incharge, his condition was bad previously, but his condition is under control now. d doctor told his family members that he can be discharged, his daughter smiled very happily. nthg worth more than health, as long as their father is healthy, they r happy.
2 more days 2 go for dis clerkship, vy hectic & busy, bear with it...i can do it!

Eager to FLy

im planning for a trip again~hope dis time i realy can make it. pray pray pray~

The End

Well i guess, it's d end of our story & my plan. vf dis post, i jz wana finalize everythg, i lost sthg in my life jz ystrday 2 mk myself hapi...but i nid time 4 it 2 happen, at d moment,i could oni pretend 2 b hapi. i realy did appreciate wat i had & wat i shared, but it's 2 hard4us when u cant get d thg even u know it's urs, it's like u own nthg....jz stimes occasionaly u know its importance when u nid it. actualy, i cant describe evrythg dat i had 4 d past few yrs...i'm hapi2 hv dat memory keep' in my mind. until then, i vil try2 b good & kind2 myself. d show must go on, i hv 2 move on.p/s: my trip is officialy canceled.

unKown

there are so many unknowns in life. i've planned 2 go travel after finish' my study life from univeristy, it's a big & memoriable step 4 me,so i guess that i hv 2 do somethg special b4 d graduation ceremony & start' my working life. many of my frens had oredy chosen d place they wana go & even booked d air ticket, accomodation etc. me?i plan 2 go Russia, my 1st step 2 europe country, it's like my dream cm true if i gt d chance2 step on dat land. but my plan jz nvr gone my way, nt as wat i planned, over & over again, i gv up on dis trip. there r 2 many thgs i nid 2 bother & concern about. it's not like i wana go,i can go,i vil go....mine is nt dat easy. after few twist & turn, i stil dun hv d conclusion, nobody can gv me d answer, can i go?hw can i go?when shud i go? so many unknownss, stimes i jz feel tired2 thk about all those thg, i wana mk my life simple, if dis way is nt mine,i'll tk another route, dat's it.....i guess there's a big & huge possibility that i hv 2 postpone my "dream-come-true"....for better or worse , im prepared.

uSual Weekly day out vf frens

As usual, every vikend me & my frens vil go out from d horrible boring campus 2 hang out. dis time i got a "mission"---> which is 2 buy a printer. me & 1 rmate share & bought hp inkjet printer 2560, vf jz RM108! finally v hv our own printer & v dun hv 2 beg 4 others 4 printing~bcoz v knw it's hard4 them 2 say "no" 2u.after dat, v head2 a Thai Food Restaurant which is quite famous in dis area--ChengMai, d food was quite nice, but d oni bad side of dat place is there r 4-5 stray dogs wandering around 4 food & shelter..1 of my fren shout whenever they r approaching, coz she's sked of dog,haha, 3 dishes vf 1 seafood tomyam soup-->cost oni RM59! v had a "great" time finding d place vf lots of wrong turn, but lastly v could enjoy d delicious meal,it's all worth while..

Long time no see,hi "me"!

yep, me,myself..i've created this blogspot account for erm...i thk 1 or 2 yrs ago,but i nvr ever visited my own "space"....now i nid some place 4 me 2 count on,i only realise that i had a blog...now i HAVE my own blog,i'll try 2 mk blog' my long lasting interest& habit. i oways put d blame on my horoscope-Gemini- if u know dis well, i'm a person vf 2 personalities,stimes more...hehe^^ anyway,i knw nt vy much ppl vil read my blog,but dis is a place4 me 2 count on....